September
I don't want to go to school. Everybody hates me there. At lunch the other day someone threw mashed potatoes at me. It was really embarassing. I have a friend named Heather but I'm not sure if I can trust her.
October
Nothing has really changed. Everybody still hates me. My friends and I used to go trick or treating together, but now they all have different friends. I'm too old to go trick or treating anyway, so I'll just stay at home.
November
Heather's trying to join a group called the Marthas. They're just really nice people who do a lot of charity work. Yuck. I'm not really into that kind of stuff. She asked me to help decorate the faultily room and I said yes.
December
For Christmas my parents got me a drawling pad. Have they really been paying attention to me? They had to be, otherwise they wouldn't of known I started drawling. I think I should tell them about the party now...but I just can't find the words.
January
I missed the bus one day and my mom made me walk. I decided to walk to the mall instead. Ever since then I been skipping school a lot.
February
I hate Valentines day. I never get a Valentines from anyone. I got a note on my locker today, but it's probably just a joke. A few days later I open it and it's a "sorry" note from Heather for her ditching me. It came with a necklace too. I'm not going to wear it.
March
Tonight I had flashbacks about the party. I never want to think about it again.
April
Ivy is in my Art class. We never really talked before, but she talked to my friends. I saw her at the mall one day and I started talking to her. She was working on her Art project. She told me that Rachel is dating Andy Evans. I want to throw up.
May
I talked to Rachel today. It was nice at first, I felt like we were going to be friends again. Then I told her I got raped. It felt good to get it off my chest. She was really worried about it and she asked who did it. When I told her it was Andy Evans, she got mad and left.
June
I was cleaning out my closet today when Andy Evans came in. He tried attacking me again, but I finally said NO. The lacrosse team heard all the noise and came over to the closet. Now everyone knows that Andy raped me and tried to again. On the last day of school, I told Mr. Freeman about everything that happened to me. It feels good to talk.